灵魂幸存者

基督教与十字架

基督教从来就坚持我们所负的十字架必须在我们所戴的冠冕以先。作为一个基督徒，他必须背起自己的十字架，包括它一切的困难。痛苦和赛满张力的内容，并背负它直到那十字架在我们身上留下印记，将我们救赎至那必须透过受苦而获致的更美好的道路。

~小马丁路德金

先知

研究那些先知，我注意到他们差不多全部都采取一种双管齐下的方法。

首先，他们会指出上帝在当下所要求的短线视野。在旧约，这通常是一个简单表明诚信的劝谕－－－重建圣殿、忠于婚约、辅助贫穷、除掉偶像以上帝为 先。然而先知不会就停在那里。他们亦会对应人最深层的问题提出一个长线观点。面对那么多的痛苦和伤害，我们怎能相信上帝爱我们？当世界仿佛被恶魔的阴谋所 支配，我们怎能相信一位公义的上帝？先知透过提醒他们的受众上帝是哪一位，并绘画出将来国度的辉煌图画，去回答这样的问题。

～Philip Yancey, 灵魂幸存者 ( "Soul Survivor") Page 26

God loveth adverbs

For three things I thank God every day of my life:

thanks that He has vouchsafed me knowledge of His works;

deep thanks that he has set in my darkness the lamp of faith;

deep, deepest thanks that I havce another life to look forward to -- a life joyous with light and flowers and heavenly song.

~~Helen Keller

Who shall cry like this?

Yesterday evening, around 6-7pm, Philip and I went home to cook dinner, preparing for leaving at 8.15pm to meet the rest of the group to visit Pn. Lim at Kuchai. In the midst of cooking, we heard a terrible crying sound, voiced from outside. The cry of the kid, i assume it's a he, crying like being tortured, terrible punished, being hit, and he held the gate and shoke it, crying and shouting "No! No! No!!!"

The first time the cries was being heard was before i get into the house, but Philip was sleeping in the night, andn the cries was from the same boy. The first time Philip heard the boy, he was crying and shouting as well, "不要，爸爸不要！！！" this cry continued until Philip can't sleep, and felt very sad about it.

We are new here, staying in this block. Actually if we all talk aloud, our neighbours will hear us. And this cry is shaking the whole block. Eventually we found that the cries are from our upper unit. We guess it's just above our unit. And when our door is opened, the cries are even more clearer.. I can't stand with the cries, and i felt very very sad and i teared for the boy, praying to God "save the boy from harm, deliver him from evil.." until i can't continue cooking.

Who shall cry like this?

m getting excited and worried

the nearer to my wedding date, i get more excited and worried.

i think that's the nature in every girl.
what could be done to be not so excited and worried?
or should i just let this process to be exciting and worrying?
this is life, i guess, and this is the process of changin my identity.
from a single lady, to become somebody's wife.
when i connect this picture with the church and our Lord Christ, it's actually the same, i feel.
the church is the bride. and Christ is the Groom.
the church is to prepare herself, and devote herself, pure and clean to the Groom.
and i have to prepare myself, devote myself, pure and clean to my groom.

1st april 2006

罕见大风灾

昨天与腓力出去吃午餐，就在SS15对面的SS14店铺，吃完了，准备上车，天黑黑，好恐怖－－－

当我们在车上，回办公室路途，狂风豪雨已经赶紧追来.　在红绿灯等待红灯转青，青灯已经来了，腓力却似乎在发梦。直到我说“青灯啦！”他才如梦初醒。问他在想什么，他就说，“我在感受者车子是否被大风吹摆着，想感受外面的风是否如此狂大。”

我们继续着路途回办公室。本来短短五分钟的车程，我们似乎花了半个世纪才到达目的地。

坐在车里的我们，行在大路上，看见那降下的豪雨，来不及碰在地上，就已被狂风吹起。路旁的大树，棵棵摇摇欲坠，深怕被大树压着。高速公路上的路牌， 已经被风吹斜了５０度。路旁的路牌也逃不过恶运。碰巧Sri KL放学时段，每个父母都有担心的脸色。有一个母亲尝试下车拿雨伞给孩子，但风实在太大了。

我们俩将近办公室，欲行过的路竟然被大树挡着了。原来就在我们眼前就有好多倒树。我们实在惊讶。马上感到不安，因为左右都有倒树，我们似乎回不了办公室。我在心里默默祷告，求主保守我们不被大树压到，也不被电灯柱压到，也不被雷劈到。
感谢主，腓力英勇地，巧妙地压过，穿过那些倒树，终于到达办公室门口。怎知，电动门开不着，电话又打不通，不晓得发生什么事。就在我们车后的大树一直在摇 摆，我不知觉地将双手摆在额头上，预备挡住倒下的树。后来，腓力冒着大雨爬进去办公室的篱笆，用锁匙将电动门开了，我才将车子驾进去。那时，我的心才安定 下来。

我们见到的景象真是罕有。心中充满感恩，感谢主的保守。
生命充满了未知数，到底上帝要告诉我们什么呢？？

bride to be..

ehem... 2 more months and 5 more days.. my identity will be change, from a single to a married persn..

ohhhooo.. is it a good news?? oh yeh! definitely! but this is a process.. when i'm through this process, i understand more what is our relationship with Jesus, He is the groom, and the church is the bride.. and so, what should a bride does? how should a bride prepare herself to the groom? and what does the groom has to prepare to welcome the bride??

What do you think??

今天起飞到澳门

今天起飞到澳门。现在在飞机上。第一次独自出国。虽不很远，也去不很久，但是有点紧张，毕竟是第一次。
原本可以不哭，但当我走着去Waiting Room时，手提响了起来。响着收悉的音乐，噢，是腓力。他在电话里叫我停下，回头望。原来他在远远地望着我。目送我离去。这举动使我感动得流泪了。现在，竟也禁不住流泪……
很久没有这么想念一个人了。

当我check in waiting room 时，工作人员见到我流泪，以为我不舒服。哦，真糗！
一直坐在椅上等待，心情才慢慢平复下来。

短别一个星期就已那么「伤心」，若是我俩其中一人先回家，那留下的另一个会是怎样呢？
不堪设想。

除了腓力以外，最担心我的应该是妈妈了。

写于6.16pm, inside AirAsia Plane, AK 0052.
Typed in 12:14pm, at boss’ house.