i have a 'daughter'

i have a 'daughter', but she is now lost in the world. i duno why she decided to do so, and it's more than a year, she changes and keep on changing.. everytime i 'accidently' meet her, i feel sad and speechless i duno shall i smile to her like last time? or shall i cry before her to tell her how sad am i? wat will God do if He sees His children swaying away from Him? i keep thinking about the parables taught by Jesus: 100 sheeps, 1 was lost, and He left the 99 sheeps, and go and look for the lost sheep. the sheperd loves the sheep, even one was lost. he will go and search for the sheep. how can i apply this parable to my life? please feel free to advice if you have any.

long lost friend

after 15 years we met again. 15 years ago, we were young girls, little children, laughing and jumping around. but 15 years later, we have our own story. things happened when we are not together. we met different people, study in different area, work in different places. and we are having different kind of lifestyle.

life..

"Life is a sum of all your choices" -- albert camus

anyway, i find something special in my heart. when we were young, i duno what is love. but now, i know what is love, and still learning to comprehend it. although 15 years we didn't meet each other, but deep in my heart, i love my friend.

a Chat with mum

I'm glad to have a time sharing with mama yesterday night. After few weeks not meeting each other, i can feel deeply in her heart, she missed me.

I thank God that my mum can cook good food, simple and healthy meals, and willing to share her feelings, her thoughts to me. I'm glad I'm her good listener (although sometimes i wasn't), I'm glad I'm not married too far away. I'm glad that I have the courage to tell her "I love you", and I'm glad i see her smiling sweetly.

We had a time of prayer, where i led, to pray for mama's health, her spiritual life, her walk with God, her understanding in the Bible, her communication with other people, her husband (my dad), her 2 other daughter (my 2 sisters)... and so on.

My tears actually started to fall when i started to pray. But we actually are having joy deep in our heart although we see strugglings, troubles, people fails around us. But God is faithful and mercyful.

Thank you Lord.

Bless my mum in her days.

Mama, I love you very much!

Godliness

Being Godliness is to be holy. Holyness is a character of God. We cannot be God, but we can imitate Him, because we are created in His image. How to imitate Him? Before we do anything, say anything, think for a while, What Would Jesus Do? Though it sounds impossible, impossible to think everytime before we say anything, but we can always reflect and think over did we say the right thing, do the right thing? Being task oriented is not a sin, but before we want to achieve a task, we shall be sensitive to person as well, being sensitive to a person's feelings, the relationship between "i and he/she", think over again and again, did i say anything wrong that hurts him or her? Did i do the right thing to encourage people, and building up a person?

"And don't let anyone put you down because you're young. Teach believers with your life: by word, by demeanor, by love, by faith, by integrity. " (The Message 1 Tim 4:12)

"不可叫人小看你年轻，总要在言语、行为、爱心、信心、清洁上，都作信徒的榜样。" (1 Tim 4:12)

Stomachache

Middle of the night, woke up because of stomach-ache, i bended myself like praying on my bed. Crying out for help.. "oh, very pain.... pain.... pain...."

My dear husband finally woke up and knew i was suffering, but he can't do nothing oso to help reduce my pain. But what he did that touched me, was he prayed for me. Simple prayer, crying to God, ask God to help me and heal me. And God is great! =)

I knew i have someone who loves me.

灵魂幸存者

基督教与十字架

基督教从来就坚持我们所负的十字架必须在我们所戴的冠冕以先。作为一个基督徒，他必须背起自己的十字架，包括它一切的困难。痛苦和赛满张力的内容，并背负它直到那十字架在我们身上留下印记，将我们救赎至那必须透过受苦而获致的更美好的道路。

~小马丁路德金

先知

研究那些先知，我注意到他们差不多全部都采取一种双管齐下的方法。

首先，他们会指出上帝在当下所要求的短线视野。在旧约，这通常是一个简单表明诚信的劝谕－－－重建圣殿、忠于婚约、辅助贫穷、除掉偶像以上帝为 先。然而先知不会就停在那里。他们亦会对应人最深层的问题提出一个长线观点。面对那么多的痛苦和伤害，我们怎能相信上帝爱我们？当世界仿佛被恶魔的阴谋所 支配，我们怎能相信一位公义的上帝？先知透过提醒他们的受众上帝是哪一位，并绘画出将来国度的辉煌图画，去回答这样的问题。

～Philip Yancey, 灵魂幸存者 ( "Soul Survivor") Page 26

God loveth adverbs

For three things I thank God every day of my life:

thanks that He has vouchsafed me knowledge of His works;

deep thanks that he has set in my darkness the lamp of faith;

deep, deepest thanks that I havce another life to look forward to -- a life joyous with light and flowers and heavenly song.

~~Helen Keller